im sorry that only jus now i then read the blog. i felt so much for you now. i want to hug you. i miss you so much.. i recall how we used to wake up every morning together, how you are sitting beside me with the red cute jacket when i was watching tv. how you clean the room for me. so much... so much.. i dont want to lose any of it..

the feeling im having now is so different, i dont want things to change.. i dont know what to say but to me, i will really work hard towards it. sigh, i dont know what to say.. its really painful..